You are not ‘it’

Many of you will relate to this post (or aspects of it) others…well, let’s say they will either hit next or fall asleep or even laugh at the ‘all over the place’ of my writing. Because I can already see as I start this post that it will be all over the place. Well then, …

We have a choice

  Just saw Sam my therapist/friend/Goddess/fucking Magic Wand waver! I had not been to see her in too long a time! Admittedly, I fell captive again the the ‘Oh I feel well bullshit so I don’t need reinforcements’ Thus, in time, I fell captive to my Tenant’s claws. So I had to put my head …

Letter to our loved ones, and everyone else…

Dear loved ones, and/or whoever might like to read this: Yes, I struggle with depression. Depression can be frustrating and exhausting to try to explain it to others. The reason for this letter is to try and express what I sometimes find hard to express in words or even in person. Depression is hard to …

A letter to Depression

  Dear Tenant called Depression, What are you really? I have read and studied and tried to understand fully what you are, but there are so many versions out there! I continue trying to come up with an answer because after so many years of living with you I still have not come to a full …

The continuous and daily struggle

So this is my journey and having committed to sharing it, here it goes… I ask myself these questions as soon as I wake up every single day: ‘What will today bring?’ ‘How will I feel in 5 minutes?’ ‘I’m inspired right now’, then literally 1.7 min later, ‘oh I think I’ll go for another …

Little angels in disguise…

Little angels floating around looking for those who think they are not worthy. That is how I feel about those who out of nowhere suddenly pop into our lives maybe after a long time, or not…, right when we are feeling down or going through a bout of sadness, confusion, low self esteem etc. A …

Depressed vs being fragile

Just a very quick one today. Again, I write from my own experiences… I was once told by someone that I am fragile. I have also been told by someone else that I am not as strong as them… And I get it, they have probably seen me cry more than once and also know …

Not as cloudy inside

Update on Sunny outside but cloudy inside… My day did get better… Firstly, it helped to ‘vomit’ my feelings onto the post…😏 Secondly, it helped to acknowledge I wasn’t feeling my best and didn’t sweep it under the carpet Thirdly, I took time out to clear my thoughts Im going to stop counting with ‘ly’ …

Putting all my eggs in the one basket (cont…)

So here goes Part 3 and the final part (I think as I am writing this), we will see where it takes us…. Before I go for the grand finale, I do want to add a few things I left out in my previous post regarding ‘putting all my eggs in the one basket’. In …

Putting all my eggs in the one basket…

Part 1   Throughout the last 9 years I have gone through many Therapies, Psychologists, Psychiatrists, Counsellors, Life Coaches, gone on retreats, read books, and the list goes on and on and on…. Some things worked. Some, not so much… The one thing I kept doing each time I started something new was giving it …