We have a choice

  Just saw Sam my therapist/friend/Goddess/fucking Magic Wand waver! I had not been to see her in too long a time! Admittedly, I fell captive again the the ‘Oh I feel well bullshit so I don’t need reinforcements’ Thus, in time, I fell captive to my Tenant’s claws. So I had to put my head …

Letter to our loved ones, and everyone else…

Dear loved ones, and/or whoever might like to read this: Yes, I struggle with depression. Depression can be frustrating and exhausting to try to explain it to others. The reason for this letter is to try and express what I sometimes find hard to express in words or even in person. Depression is hard to …

A letter to Depression

  Dear Tenant called Depression, What are you really? I have read and studied and tried to understand fully what you are, but there are so many versions out there! I continue trying to come up with an answer because after so many years of living with you I still have not come to a full …

The Million Dollar Question 

 So many things go through my mind. I think non stop of what I need to do to improve in so many aspects of my life (personally). This will all sound negative and as if I’m feeling sorry for myself… but please bear with me and read on… So back to the millions of …

To the Greater Power…

Who or whatever that may be for each and everyone of us… Please continue to give me the strength to continue this battle Continue to give me the strength to be open and honest about it Continue to support me in supporting those who also struggle, to show and prove we are not alone in …

The continuous and daily struggle

So this is my journey and having committed to sharing it, here it goes… I ask myself these questions as soon as I wake up every single day: ‘What will today bring?’ ‘How will I feel in 5 minutes?’ ‘I’m inspired right now’, then literally 1.7 min later, ‘oh I think I’ll go for another …

Little angels in disguise…

Little angels floating around looking for those who think they are not worthy. That is how I feel about those who out of nowhere suddenly pop into our lives maybe after a long time, or not…, right when we are feeling down or going through a bout of sadness, confusion, low self esteem etc. A …

Depressed vs being fragile

Just a very quick one today. Again, I write from my own experiences… I was once told by someone that I am fragile. I have also been told by someone else that I am not as strong as them… And I get it, they have probably seen me cry more than once and also know …

Not as cloudy inside

Update on Sunny outside but cloudy inside… My day did get better… Firstly, it helped to ‘vomit’ my feelings onto the post…😏 Secondly, it helped to acknowledge I wasn’t feeling my best and didn’t sweep it under the carpet Thirdly, I took time out to clear my thoughts Im going to stop counting with ‘ly’ …

Sunny outside but cloudy inside…

So as not to be a hypocrite and sticking to my word to be honest in this journey here goes this post…Today is a beautiful, sunny crispy day. Outside of me. Inside of me it is as dark and sad as can be.  No bloody idea why, but it just is! It caught me by …